39 weeks

Well I have a doctors appointment today and I'm pretty sure ( but not 100% ) that I will be induced today. Lately my blood pressure has been climbing, which is definitely not safe for me or the baby and my doctor has been making me get some lab work done, which has been coming back fine. Well, on Monday I called the office becuase I started having a problem with my vision, it was getting all blurry ( like I needed to refocus my eyes). This actually started like Thursday but I thought it was just my contacts so I started wearing my glasses, and with no avail, it kept getting worse. Then on Sunday, Nick and I went to breakfast with his aunt and uncle and when we were done we went over to Wal-Mart to pick up a few things, and as soon as we walked inside my heart started racing and I couldn't breath. I sat down for like 10 mins while Nick went and picked everything up and then we left. We got home and everything seemed fine. Well on Monday I had the same problem with my heart and my eyes were still acting all crazy, so I finally called the doctor. The asked me to come in to the office so they could check me out. When I got there my blood pressure was really high so they had me lay down on my left side for about 5 mins and they came back in to check it, and it was still high. He checked my cervix and I was still only 2 cm dilated but 65% effaced. He then told me to go get more lab work done and go home and they would call me the following day with the results. Well yesterday I hadn't heard from them by 2pm so I called and left a message for someone to call me back and let me know what is going on. About 15 mins later a nurse called and said that my lab results came back fine and that they just want me to relax and to keep my appt for today and that they are hoping I will just go into labor on my own. Now by this time, I had gotten very pissed off. Trying to keep as calm as possible I told the nurse that they tell me to call them when I start having these certain problems, due to the preeclamsia and when I do they just tell me to go get lab work and go home. I told her if my lab work is coming back fine then why am I still having these problems, that aren't getting any better. By this time I'm almost in tears I'm so angry. I then told her that I feel like they are just making me wait around until something bad happens before they do anything, and now I'm crying on the phone. The nurse suddenly gets very quite and tells me that she will have the doctor call me. Well around 5:30 I get a phone call from my doctor and he tells me that yes my lab work did come back fine but he is not quite sure why I'm still having problems. Then he told me that at my appt today he will recheck my cervix and that if it is ready he will induce me today because he is on call at the hospital tonight. I asked him what it means by "if my cervix is ready". I told him I haven't been having any contractions so I'm not dilating but I reminded him that I was 65% effaced. He said that my cervix is ready and he just wants to double check it. I'm getting very nervous and I don't want to get my hopes up incase this doesn't happen. I think they now know that I'm very unhappy with the way that I've been treated and that I'm not going to sit around and wait to go into labor while my symptoms keep getting worse. I really hope that they induce me tonight, I just don't want anything to happen to the baby. Wish me luck, I hope this is the end!